stupid computer! i already change the layout n publish it. however the webbie got error. aiyo! btw.. lausanne, i really dunno dat u n 1 got the same layout. really! now i wanna change also cannot. the computer fault. timothy n i was talking about my stupid layout tis morning. btw... if the layout still the same, i think some1 better change it for mi! thanx! or the same word "live wif it"
What's human worst error is 2 deceive himself when he did something wrong. human tended use lot of reasons 2 cover up 4 the things they do. tis is the worst! wat we should do is 2 admit the mistake n face the music.
suddenly, i realised some ppl around mi was deceiving themself. i dun wan say who r they. i think i also included in term of relationship. sometimes i really feel so tired. balancing the WOG n emotion isnt easy. in fact, it is extreme hard! after exams, i think i gotta do some self-reflect. some place some where i feel i am not okay.
talking about the novel, after exams i gotta touch on dat. kekeke.. gotta study le! cya!
kekeke.. todae is fun. went for swimming in the afternoon. kekeke... after dat, when 2 zouk 2 cheer 4 magnum... kekeke.. the 9finalists r realli talented... so talented. aiyo! alot of pretty babe n hunks. kekeke.. not lusting kaez... i know the art 2 appreciate ppl. pretty n handsome. kekeke.. magnum won as no1. kekeke.. i think the 1st runner up is better.. maybe bcoz i in cheerleading dat y when i see other talents i think is beri harder. kekek.. din went wif the other 2 go MS 2 eat 'buk kut tei'(spelling??), went home early 2 be 'guai' son. realised dat home also cook the same things... additional dishes is abalone!!! if my memory serve mi rite, there isnt any special events or birthdae dat fall on todae. u noe wat my mum told mi? she say at home too much canned abalone(-.-"). seem when my family become so rich de? y i dunno. kekek... btw... i onli stay in a four-room hdb flat.
"When will you stop looking at girls?"
"When? Did I? Did I? How can I not aware of it?"
"Yeah right, yeah right. I REPEAT: YOU DID! YOU DID! YOU DID!"
"C'mon! Junie! You are making things so difficult for me! Do you expect me to walk with my eyes closed?"
"I don't expect you to walk with your eyes closed of course!(I'm lying. Every other woman should be transparent except me!). It's just that your eyes don't seem to follow an old 'ah-ma' for as long as they follow a sexy-looking woman with big busts."
"Junie, you can't compare things that way. can you?"
For the rest of the bus journey, we sat within a distance of unfamiliar acquaintanceship. Instead of consoling me, Quan fell asleep on the bus(Grrrrrrr..... !!!) leaving me to play the mad game of jealousy.
Guys would probably say, "You girls are just too sensitive. Girls are attention-seeking monsters. Too jealous. Too insecure. If you have the beauty, you have it. If you don't have it, just be smart and be a good plain Jane."
hhahahaz... tis i thought 4 a long time... is it lust? but i gotta agreed, guys cant keep their eyes away from pretty gals. Guys' fault? how bout girls? do they look at charming dude? true enough? So let be fair...(girls out there! heard it?) also, attention-seeking, jealous n insecure... u girls cant deny it horz. *experienced it too much.(in the past)
girls actually have two choices! Choice1: To have it all. Beauty and brains. This package comes with an intelligent flair, a cute face, a slender figure and big bosoms. Choice2: To just hope for the best. so wat your choice?(some dun have the choice, but can work on it):P
Guys! dun laugh. it is just not ur turn yet.
oh no... i dunno how 2 continue the novel le... guys.. i nid ur help... at the tag board choose the ending... either the gal got pregrant(spelling???) or the guy choose 2 forgive? kekeke... lausanne... ur hp no. got change? i will msg u the detail... after u tell mi dat ur no. changed? btw... ur birthday present still wif mi... u still wan? hm... later i cuming up wif a different story... kekeke..
"todae hasnt been a great day 4 mi. everything is over between mi n her. no more phone call, no more msg. suddenly i felt beri beri confused n lonely. tis is the first time in 11+months dat we haven been contacting 1another 4 more den 12hrs. i missed her. alot! maybe last time when i said break, i din realli think i will lose her. but now, i felt like i realli lose her. i wanna her back 2 my life. but i cant bring it up. i am scared 2 be hurted again, 2 hurt her again. i felt dat i hurt her alot alot. i feel like toking 2 some1 but i dun think i will be listening 2 their advice. so wat the point, i guess i wanna a listening ear. maybe i should get myself bz, realli bz so i wun let my mind run wild. my classes end beri early todae n when i reach home. my room seemed 2 bring mi back 2 the past. the time i spent wif her, the things we do. the images is pulling my heart real wide. i cant take it.
i felt useless now. nothing is realli going rite in life. i lost my sense of direction. i seemed 2 be waiting things 2 happen in my life--my hair 2 grow longer, cca 2 resume, savin enuff 2 buy stuffs, face 2 recover, some tv program at nite, etc... i nid 2 get my life back on the track but i realli nid help from my fren. maybe time will heal everythings n i dun haf the patience.
finally, i understand the feeling of first love!"
tis is part2 of my novel. kekeke... part3 cuming out soon.. rmb 2 catch the latest post later. hm... maybe after todae i will not be updating it 4 some time.. i going 2 repair my laptop...bcoz of the stupid grahic card. btw... every1 reading my blog pls leave a not on the tag board. i wanna noe who 'you xin' 2 read my blog. kekeke.. thanx alot.
"back 2 reality is realli a hard knock! i told my best fren about my breaking wif my gf. he was stunted--bcz i treated her like a princess. after listening 2 the whole story, he told mi 2 stop contactin her. y? even patch, the trust n the bond will not be strong n eventually will break. every1 is surprise rite? she cheated u y still tok 2 her? the reason is easy-- we break during her exam period n i realli dun wan her 2 fail her exams. did i make the rite choice? i will be hurting her more. i realli dun wan her 2 cry over mi. 2 be true, everytime i tok 2 her, i had 2 hide all my emotions n also trying 2 be mean... hinting her 2 get over mi. i not the kinda of mean person but i gotta be firm tis time n not 2 be soft hearted. not again! now the exams is over 4 her--i guess wat i can do 4 her is now over. i dun wan hurt her animore. yesh! she deserved it but i realli dun wan her 2 live in such a state. todae is the last time i gotta listen 2 her call--she cried again. tis time i could listen 2 her mum also tok 2 her:"XXX! i dun wan u 2 be sad. so sad den dun patch larh" she was like saying dat i hurting her daughter.maybe it's truth. i finally understand the heart of the mother, even daughter's fault mother still protect daughter from outsider 'harming'. but who understand how i feel? did i had a heart made of steel? i was like trying my best 2 hide my feeling tis few wk, who noe? maybe tis song describe the best.
(^-^)/. refresh after waking up.kekeke.. the service was fun! i think i still look like a no-believer. aiyo!!! went home after service... chat a while den slp at 3. once again i was able 2 be awake for 30+hrs. every1 pls use ur heart 2 listen 2 tis song i post--When God Run. it's beri nice...
Din get the chance to blog tis few days… bz wif the trial out n project!!! QC is crap!!! The whole group din do anything at all until the beri last hour. Sorrie… 2of the members din even do at all… God bless! At least I still got the other member dat did something about it. He did the presentation n I do the report. Mind u, the project deadline is 1day later. I was like take some of the data from the sample report den edit. Everything was made up, from the survey to the respond. Kekeke… managed 2 finish in 2+hrs. I was like so amazed. 3months project finish in 2hr? lol. But the standard of the project can be expected. Presentation was luckily n good. Teacher din see through dat the project was made up, Good cover!
Trial out! :~~~ I did beri badly. I knew I got stage fright. Sad man! Everything was out of timing. But I did learn alot of things from tis trial out. Especially experience! Tis was main difference between the senior n junior. Through tis thing, I get to know my standardberi lousy. Buck up! Start from the basic. After the exams, I gotta train my basic. Kekeke…
Todae was so rush lorh. Went sch at 10am, presentation at 11, trial out at 1.30pm, rush home bath n eat, went 2 habour front 2 pass a book back 2 junxiong—thank a lot of ur book or I gotta fail another module, den went for jesse birthday party n lastly meeting timothy at changi airport 2 study throughout the whole night. Kekek.. I now blogging at airport. Kekek.. no internet connection but now is 5.30am. update when there is internet connection.
Went for jesse birthday party. Kekke… when I reach, almost every1 is going home. -.-“ tok 2 yifang n yixin. Kekek… realised dat yifang is beri beri beri good gal. she was like all out 4 jason yet Jason was like… okie. No judging. Thumb up 4 yifang! Went wif yixin 2 mrt. Taking same ways as I going 2 airport.
My timing again wrong. Last mrt 2 airport is departed. I was like at tanah merah alone at 12am. Er… dunno 2 take cab or hope for the bus no. 24? In the end, I risk by going 2 tampines hoping 2 take 27. fine! The last bus also departed. -.-“ I was like left wif 10+dollars. How 2 take cab? Nvm… ask the taxi driver. In the end, when I reach airport. Cab fare was onli $8 with midnight charge. -.-“ so cheap lorh. I still scare no $$ 2 pay. The most stupid things is… when I dig for $$, I realised I got $20+. I think I making a fool out of myself. Kekek.. but the feeling reach airport was shiok! Coz I nid get myself lose in tanah merah.
Study from 1am 2 now. Kekeke.. later going for church service. I still hyper lorh. Kekek.. but I think I will be dying after the service. Kekee. Okie. I think I gotta study again le. Rest so long liao. Kekeke… btw… thank lizze 4 the songs. Finally I listening 2 english songz. Those songs r great!
haiz... troubled over the stunts. sianz! not realli troubled at first... first i, kenny n safiq wanted 2 do chair... den more ppl doing plus i arent stable enuff. den i thought of transit shouldersit 2 shoulderstand, trophie... suddenly... every1 is doing... Safiq should understand who am i talking about. haiz... those tactics all gone. watever! isnt dat doing the same stunts. but is the way of going up n down is exactly the same when there r different method 2 go up.
at first i was quite pissed, but now... i think i am childish. i shouldnt think so highly of myself. maybe realli they thought of it. N also if they realli copied my idea, they also muz haf the standard 2 copy it. aniwae it is my fault, magnum is a group so we should be helping one another. May the Force be wif U.
Job 40:12
look at every proud man and humble him, crush the wicked where they stand.
1 Peter 5:5
Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."[ 5:5 Prov. 3:34]
Old fame!
in tis world... there r 2 beauty...
beauty of imperfection! well, 2 granny singing s.h.e songs. singing songs dat doesnt suit their ages. tis is beauty of imperfection. another 1 is beauty of regret. hahhaz.. tis beauty not many able 2 appreciate it. wanting something yet cant get it, hate urself but doesnt know it maybe a blessing in disguise. hhahaz.. 2day i will share a story.. it goes like tis.
Once i had an umbrella, a beautiful white umbrella. when i first saw it, my heart told mi dat i wanted it. bringing it out on raining season make mi feel better. well, time goes by. once a beautiful white umbrella turned into an old yellowish umbrella. Who want an old yellowish umbrella? how insulting? i wanted to purposely forget it while going out. y? so 2 minimize the pain between the umbrella n mi. i tried but always there is some1 who found it n return 2 mi. suddenly a day, it was gone. wow! but wait, i am not ready. U cant leave without my permission. i am firmed 2 get it back. i began 2 search 4 it. izzit in the bookstore? hawker centre? arcade? finally i found it in the cinema. i was very very happy. the taste was like when getting back with my old fame. there is a chinese word 2 suit it-- pou jing cou yuan. the feeling is beyond comprehension. looking the thing on the other hand, wat if i cant find the umbrella? wat if it is gone forever? will the beauty of regret suit mi better?
i shall continue the story later. kekeke... my frenz actually cum 2 mi n say am i okie? huh???
0.o. kekeke... i think i can be a script writer le. although my england is not up 2 powder. actually i wanted 2 write in chinese but the blog dun allow + some ppl out there dun understand chinese. no nid 2 mention names--alot. kekeek
how? tis is a story of a guy dat i noe. *sad rite. always hear dat guys dump gals but actually some gals r more vicious. *no offences.
"it had been the sadest day in my life. i broke up wif my gal fren. her mum found out dat she got 2bf n ask her 2 choose onli 1. she chose mi but wat was dat about? i not the third party but i felt so cheated. so cheated. for 1month she was wif another guy. the scene of she n another guy being together broken my heart. she can actually hide tis from mi but she chose 2 tell mi.
she once said dat she scared dat i will love some1 den leave her. did i? haa! maybe she was hinting it 2 mi. i was like making a fool out of myself. she said she cant accept some1 dat step 2 boats. n now what? she was doing dat on mi. pain pain pain! i guess tis is wat my heart muz be feeling. true! i still care for her but i couldnt accept tis or i should say i had no courage 2 face it.
finally, those weird things happen during the past month cum 2 an end. the answer is out. extreme late when dating, pretend not 2 noe her on the bus bcoz there is schmates on the bus, not able 2 chat on the phone-saying her mother using the phone/tired/toking 2 june n whoever, kissing dat feel so cold, easily angry when i say somethings, self-centre, off the phone without reason, and etc. maybe i realli love her so much till it's realli hurtz. i do care but i cant face some1 dat cheated mi when i trust her so much. i gave my best in tis relationship-- my heart, my soul, my money and whatever she wanted. i felt i was treated like dirt. i juz wanted some1 dat realli be faithful n love mi. is dat alot?
maybe juz bcoz i too ugly, dat y. i feel like crying but 2 who? maybe time will heal everythings. or maybe time would juz past mi by. i dunno. i am confused."
todae! went 4 the QC presentation. however, wat happen? my group din even start doing the report. hEllo!? 2dae is deadline. they noe wat is called deadline? in the end gotta cock up a excuse 2 hand it in next wk. y always gonna wait till the beri last minute den start doing. nvm. i gotta do the whole report by myself. if do together. dunno muz waste how much america time. i think i gotta go 4 sunday service le. training n studiee totally made up my whole saturaday.
btw... juz received a letter from teacher. at first i still thought is debarred letter. God bless! is a letter sayin i received MPS award. top the level for MPS(math proficiency system). dun realli think i should receive tis award. there r much more ppl dat deserve tis award den mi. in term of slacking, i think den i should receive a award.
training todae was okay. however, knowing dat i was realli not up 2 standard. is like once i think about my mistake, more dat 1page of errors i can think about. siAnzation! gotta train realli hard. cupwheel cum front flip. chair, superman, trophie, front shouldersit, transit-shoulder stand, timing. aiyo!!! so much in 1wk. nvm. i got a perfect God dat help mi.
HEB 11:1-
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
2 TIM 1:7-
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
finally starting 2 understand the whole blogging system is about. all thanx 2 huixin giving mi the webbie 2 find templates. kekek... lazy mi finally began 2 do something about my blog. how long have i been saying 2 update the template? watever! i had done it leh. kekeke... sorrie huixin. i still decided 2 use the winnie the pooh template. kekeke.. aniwae when i learn more about the blog... i will slowly change the whole things.
btw... tis whole background is made use of three different template. there is another version but i think kitten is cuter n also alvin is using the template. too bad. going 2 search 4 better template when i got the time... kekeke..
aiyo! finally lazy mi blog! appraise! kekek...
haiz, my studiee is in a mess! din do tis, din do dat. :P gotta use a cane 2 cane myself. however, i getting sure wat i nid 2 do in the near future--studiee+cca+finanical. put dat into action! *nod nod. maybe tis wk i going 2 changi airport 2 studiee. when is the last time i went there?...oh i remember le. b4 'O' level wif stanley, guanhow n timothy. kekeke.. maybe i will ask timothy 2 go wif mi. timothy!u got see my blog anot?
God please bless ur son 2 pass PC(physical chemistry). i retake once le. fail n dat's it. i will get kick out of poly. i gotta studiee from tml(now beri the late le).
physical health is also beri important. i think i gotta go 2 the sch gym during the break. kekeke. muz sharpen all the stunts--trial out is on the 18th.
oh.. happy birthday 2 SAM! continue 2 grow in God's presence.. dunno he noe my blog anot? nvm. will pray 4 him. kkeke.
What I Adore________
Food:non-spicy foods/meat
Drinks:pepsi/greentea/lemontea
Pastimes:arcade/bball/cheerleading/
clubbing/dancing/ktv
People:family/friends
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People:myself
Things:nth
Food:spicy foods/vegetables
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Song: My Happy Ending
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