for the first time, i cried during and after the camp.
the cheerleading camp was fun yet stressful. every1 is trying their best to do wat they can. our group has to come up wif a rountine in 3days. as every1 in the group is not close, tensions built up, not every1 opinion n thought were heard. some felt left out, some felt angry. on the second day, the morale is the lowest. imagine playing games when every1 is so tensed. they even lost their way in the school. i din played becoz i have to help the game master. play 'hunt for talent' in the middle of the night-> i posed as a cheerleading bimbo. omg! dat's so disgusting. the make-up artist dunno how to make up de, make-up so thick. had a team conversation on the third day, there is where every1 speak up their mind. every1 cried. every1 had their own problems. some felt left up, some felt discouraged when stunts din up bcoz of he/she, some freaked out when harsh words were said. after meeting up 3times, the whole team was so different. every1 is trying to appreciate one another n encourage one another. dat's the spirit of magnum. yesterday was the showdown, we trained for 1hr den every1 slpt. whereas the other teams were training for 4hrs. our team showed our best during the showdown. we won 2titles out of the 3titles. overall games champion n best teamwork. lenny said dat our stunts were flawless. keke..
after camp, as i reach home, i had the worst new in my life. i shall not said wat happen. but i wanna say something to dat person coz i know dat person will read tis:
-i din tell u how important u r doesnt mean dat i din appreciate u!
-i did tried to accept who u r
-u cant imagine how much u hurt mi when u said dat.
-i forgive u once but u hurt mi once again.
but i think u had move on so no point telling u how i feel. but tis song was realli fromt he bottom of my heart: Gui ji
zen me yin cang
wo de bei shang
shi qu ni de di fang
ni de fa xiang
san de cong mang
wo yi jing gen bu shang
bi shang yan jing
hai neng kan jian
ni li qu de hen ji
zai yue guang xia yi zhi zhao xun na xiang nian de shen ying
ru guo shuo fen shou shi ku tong de qi dian
na zai zhong dian zhi qian
wo yuan yi zai ai yi bian
xiang yao dui ni shuo de
bu gan shuo de ai
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai
wo hui fa zhe dai
ran hou wang ji ni
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
xiang zhe na yi tian
hui you ren dai ti
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni
wo hui fa zhe dai
ran hou wei wei xiao
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
you xiang le yi bian
ni wen rou de lian
zai wo wang ji zhi qian
xin li de yan lei
mo hu le shi xian
ni yi kuai kan bu jian
*ps. given a chance to choose again, i will stick to u!
back to blogging. juz woke up in the middle of the night. was forced to eat my dinner. i think i realli overwork myself too much le. after blogging, i going back to slp.
now i got alot of injures, cuming from soccer n cheerleading. my wrist, finger, thigh(all left) n ankle(right) is all swollen. tml going to see chinese doctor after training.
sunday--> went for the big walk. den play bowling wif my fren. manage to get 171 onli. dat was so bad! okie larh. 1yr din train le. after dat, went town wif tony den together went to play soccer.
soccer--> playin wif semi-pro n pro players. i meant they r realli pro-->sleague clubs approach them to offer contract. learnt alot from their first choice keeper. opposition team is beri strong. this is called real soccer, comparing wif the kinda of teams i used to play wif. won 2-1 in the end. if the first choice keeper played the whole match, we would win wif a clean sheet. but the uncle is so nice, he let mi play n teach mi. even though i concede a goal, he still encourage mi. however, this match also bring in the injures of my finger, thigh n wrist.
cheerleading--> camp is juz 2days away. was quite excited but scare too. coz dere definitely got lots of physical training. but one thing for sure, i will be strong after the camp. kekeke..
attachment--> i mixed beri well wif the SP students beri well. last wk we even jam together. playing songz like 'girl all the bad guys want' n 'swing swing'. cant imagine i had to leave them after 3wks more. kekek.. attachment teaches mi lots of things... beside knowledge but also practical stuffs n discipline to wake up like 5:30 in the morning after 3hrs of slp.
*yawn. i think i gotta slp le. or later i will slp in the lecture.
"There is no end to it. You cannot find the beginning of the chain that brought us from there to here. should you regret the whole chain, and the air in between, or each link separately, as if you could uncouple them? Do you regret the beginning which ended so badly, or just the ending itself?"
- White Oleander
oh ya... i still forget to complain about the eye for a guy. aiyo!!! it supposed to be a reality show lorh.. in the end, y rachel is dating dat mark? y is wai chung, adam n eugene in the game when they already had gf. our eyes were opened to the fakery of the genre. rachel chose sivert to win but dating mark.
as hundreds of thousands of us sit before the idiot box night after night, addicted to the fights, the dates, the rejections, the alliances, the betrayals, and the dramatic twists and reversals, the little voice in my head wonders: is this the raw excitement of unrehearsed and unscripted human behaviour or has the while thign been cooked and served to us on a platter?
aniwae, this also show how real a person can be. for a instant, rachel chose sivert bcoz it is a safer choice. hello! it isnt buying stocks in the market. it is about feeling n emotion. did she ever think of sivert's feeling? n btw... mark will be joining sivert n rachel in the trip to paris. omg! can u imagine how stiff the atmosphere will be? another point is dat mark actually ask rachel's no. b4 the show start which he shouldnt.
by the end of the day, it din affect mi as a whole. coz i onli learning from their point of view. keke... *yawn. i think i better slp le. tml i still got to wake up at 5:30am. cheers everyone!
oh my, i havent been blogging for quite some times. lots of things happened tis 4days. first is the cptc training-->due to changing of class, i haf to mix with a new group of ppl. they r from sp n nyp. okie larh, they r quite friendly n i can mix well wif them. got my chance to climb up the plant. it is so high up dat i can see the whole of jurong island. basically, it is 60+m above the sea level. tml practical, i hope it is fun.
magnum training-->sat training was about training for single extension. it realli test ur strength, endurance n control. omg! i nid more training... my endurance is not dere.
dance-->due to the cheerleading camp, i dun haf to perform at esplanade on the 27,28may. phew! if i haf to perform, i realli gotta train alot more, coz dere r 4 dance items altogether. beside dat, my steps isnt dat sharp yet.
soccer-->dat the best part man! tis 2wks performance the team think dat i improve alot. though dere is alot more i can improve. especially catching the ball wif comfort n long ball n crosses. last wk, our team played against adults-->average age is 28 ba.we lost 2-1 but i onli concede a goal.. the other goal is conceded by the substitued keeper. actually, we lost in term of experience n stamina. dat's bad! today, we played wif our age team. is 8 vs 11. the rest of the team all awol(absent without leave). but in the end, we won 4-1. i conceded another stupid goal. but i learn alot from the match.
finally i got time to blog! i was beri beri busy for the past few days... n i think i gotta mantain it for 6wks. omg! having cptc is boring n slack! imagine urself having 2,1/2hrs for lunch yet u got nothing to do except eating n tanning. average temperature is 40C. it is like a oven n we haf to wear a 'naval seal suit'. i appeal to go for the morning shift so dat i can go for my magnum training.. so basically i am onli free on mon,wed n fri-->after 5! dat's all. all the other time slot was taken up for 6wks. average sleep per day is 4hrs. okie larh. at least i can sleep, thanx God! i realli nid strength from God... physical strength especially. after cptc still got training-->tue training was terrible.
exams is finally over! yupsss.... the end. aniwae... dun think dat i will haf good result. but i will pray hard for able to pass every subjects. *cross-fingered!
aniwae... i onli haf a day to rest. monday i will be going for the chemical process training le. dat will be the start of the 6wks nightmare. oh my god, give mi back my holiday. aniwae... soon i will go gym wif safiq, den go church, den go dance. today will be touching up on jazz, latin-jazz n hiphop. even though i still cant get the feeling, but i realli like dancing. can dance betta den william hung i happy le... lol!
lol!! was reading my previous blog. realised dat my english sux big time.. aniwae.... dat was onli a story... not true k! aniwae... went to timothy house to study on sunday...
n for the first time in tis yr, i study real hard... but dat onli started at 2am... was surfing net n chatting online b4 dat.
oh ya... i broke my own record. i finish a module in 6hrs. i mean dat is nothing if u got attend lecture n stuffs. but, i started from scratch. first time seeing the note, first time see the equation n stuffs. but thanx God, i was able to understand everything in 6hrs rather den 6mths. but i think i still gotta fail! y? i din go for the common test, lectures n tutorial... even though i was quite confidence dat the exams i can get at least 70marks. okie larh... i gotta study le or i going to retain for 1yr.
What I Adore________
Food:non-spicy foods/meat
Drinks:pepsi/greentea/lemontea
Pastimes:arcade/bball/cheerleading/
clubbing/dancing/ktv
People:family/friends
What I Hate_________
People:myself
Things:nth
Food:spicy foods/vegetables
Music's Playing_____
Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song: My Happy Ending
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